love hate relationship

I once wrote a research paper on the Warsaw Ghetto in Warsaw, Poland during WWII. I loved that paper and I think it was way more than just research. I feel spiritually connected to that time period and the sufferings people endured so this was a great paper for me to write. I already knew a lot about the topic because I had done my own research on the subject before the paper. When it came to picking the topic the class was instructed to write a paper and give a presentation on anything that had any impact on the way today’s military functioned or how we go to be the military we are today. The choice was instant for me. I knew I was going to write about WWII and about the Jewish people.  In another research paper I did in my senior year I hated it. We were given a long list of topics and to be honest I can’t even remember what it was I chose to write about. I did exactly as Ballenger said he did. I put no heart and no effort into what I was writing. I was a machine spitting our words with no purpose or question in particular. If could write about anything in the world write now I would write about how cold I am and how I wish we had snow in Florida.

How can I bring life into a subject that i may not be really interested?